What am I suppose to do now?

Firstly i would like to revive my blog as its alrdy dead for such a long time and my babe woke me up today saying that she still view my blog even thou im not even updating. Feeling so ashamed of myself. So wat I have alrdy finish my poly? i feel so suffocated! why? blog i just wanna vent out my anger. Dad have been keep asking me about uni stuff and with my final results now i just feel that i'm in the middle of no where. If I can't get into local U wat should I do? Is it so hard to get a degree? does my life needs a degree so much? Do i need to go overseas if i can;t get into local U? Do i have to hurt my love one again? Blog i have alrdy made her suffered once when i was in Wuhan its really unfair to her to do it once again. Hoping to get into local U one day, I try to do myself proud I try to do my dad proud of me and not look down by others but kind of think of that wat do i gain in the end when ppl just praise u? I just blame myself sometimes why is fame and face that impt to me? bizzz always told me i should get out of my own comfort zone and dun think that everyone is looking down on me but i cant. I wanted to help u out in yr school stuff but i can't. seing u suffered so much in school with all sorts of assignment but just to comfort u by telling u that i'm by yrside there's nth else i can do! Making u love me more than i do i felt terrible. Just felt that i'm sort of a burden of yours. Just believe in yrself k? U can do it de just like how u encourage me when i was having my final year exam. In the end i did well rite? so u mustn't let this r/s of ours affect yr studies k? Its yr last freshman sem le so just chiong babe! I Love U! I Miss U! My Dearest!


Holding u tightly!!!

Its been long time i didn't blog already,
wats makes me blog, wat makes me miss,
wat makes me love, wats makes me sad,
wat makes me worried? giving u all the time n happiness of mine wishing all the best time we had can preserved till the end, there's so much things that i can bare to leave behind, seeing u weak i have to tell myself to be strong as if i fall u will not have a strong pillar there for u to give u to hold on to, time really pass fast i'm sad also sometime heaven is going to give ask a task or a test on how strong is our r/s.

On that nite about wat we chat is all promise u, every word, every sec, every min, every heart beat of yours and every breathing of yours i'll always rmb and keep in my heart n soul. All the time we spent together i really very very very happy like a little boy n a little pork monster as wat u always call me heex..

Just hope u always smiling so happily bibi all this while i have been cherish all the time with u i already given all the best i can give already after all have to count on u to stand up with yr own feet in my life no 1 ever make me feel so happy this way. ok dun emo le lgy cheer up k!!!! rah rah rah!!!

oh yeah ei yeah ei........ now to waiting for my bibi to come over than we go watch movie cos she wanna watch this show very long le as long as she's happy i'll always try my best to cheer her up. bibi i come back we go prawn fishing again k? that day is just a starting i come back will own u de k? seeing u so agitated wanna owned me that day even i let u catch more prawn than me i also very happy really. i promise u i'll definately come back for u de k?

I know u dun wanna me to go,
but for my studies i have to leave,
after all the times i have for u,
i really wan u to be happy,
wait for me k?
i'll sure come back for u! trust me,
i'll not make yr history replay,
make u change yr mind about ppl going overseas,
trust me i promise!!!
I Love U!
I Miss U!


I'm Sorry

Buckcherry Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

This time I think I'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue

I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah sorry

I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry you're blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby,
Yeah.I'm sorry.

Wat have i done? i hurt my princess n i really hurt her deeply i dun know how to face her so i delicate this songs for her just wanna tell her that i'm sorry. i know its harsh words that i used it i dun wanna denied or push away the blame anymore, Blog tell me wat can i do other than vent my feelings on u? Can i vent it on other things like speeding, smoke or even chill with my frens n act as if nth happen? i can't but how can i apologise to her?
will she forgive me?
will we revive the r/s again?
i totally destroyed her memories on the beach that day.
i regret,
i admit that i'm selfish,
just wanna tell her that i didn't mean all those words top hurt her izzit so difficult?
i'm such a failure
but still?
at last i still hurt her with my bare hands!!!
my own BARE HANDS!!!!
if i were given a chance again i'll tell her that i'll take that abit more of understanding for her to sercue her with love once again the times that we have been gone thru is not 1 day 1 week or even 1mth to repersent.

i shouldn't blame her i should blame myself after taking a short tot of it i really neglected her LGY where the fresh feeling, paitence, caring that u nv ever care for some1 b4 and the sense of humour to JT?

i couldn't ask for yr forgiveness anymore think i going for a ride ba!!!!!!!


loves my hamburger!!!



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seems like i was the last person who's spamming right here in this big white box.
well what to do?
some da mang ren's been busy with work
and guess he got nothing much to speak of when he's here because
updating about his daily life will be all about work and if possible a sweet lovely date with his cute princess
else its some chill-out-with-cool-guys date with his buddies
and the rest of it all is SLEEP TIME
the exciting thing everyday is to EAT!
but seemingly this is also THE LIFE OF MY BOYFRIEND:D
its not boring
except the part about sweet dates with his cute princess
whatever, im just here to say....


ps :read the red words.. COOL EH?

signing out with a KISS,
THE PIG's princess


the HERO

leaving you. that wouldnt cross my mind
walking away from you, i've done it too many times
but you taught me to smile again
you wiped my tears dry, like you promised
you never walked away from me ever since that day i asked you not to
you tried so hard not to hurt me... with all your temper
but im saying... show it all to me...
coz you know i should and will love you for what you are.
no matter how bad is your temper..i'll accept it.
like you just took in each and everything of me,my weaknesses..
give me and give us a chance to make this work. make us last
i'll learn to set my priorities right but i cant not commit 100%
i may sound scary or too straightforward
but im not gonna act a strong front and pretend that i cant live without you
because i cant. seriously...
youre too good to lose. i wouldnt let you slip away...
baby, you'll always be my hero...a knight in shining armour

i surrender my heart, soul and all burden to you right now...
i'll let you hold my hands tight and get through this year.
we'll make it!


U r impt to me!!!

ARARARAR!!!!!!!!!!! really can't sleep, really feels like going for a ride now but i promise her when i'm sad i can't go to chill only like last time le!!! i'll kept my promise. alot of things happen i just dun know what to say. suddenly sitting down tink of alot of stuff thinking back when we just known each other u were the first girl in my life asking me was that a date with u when i asked u for a meal its was really feeling like how will this girl just ask just like that its kind of weird but its also the first time it happen to me i can't believe a girl like u so adorable just shoot like that at that point of time i was stun n say "YA" i rmb. that really impressed me n pick up interest in u kind of like wanna know me about u n bet that u have more things that i had to discover in u.

Time really past damm fast we had been 9th mth together and alot of things of sad n happy memories between us make u so special, but i bet happy memories doesn't last long too i kept telling meself i'll always reassure u with all my hearts n creativity. having u as my girl really feels gd n comfortable being with u.yup i'm always so positive n cheering n up if u were sad, i kept telling myself even if u r down i'll still be standing down there to hold u but now i'm very disappointed with myself my thinking just change as i'm very confident but now i just dun know whether how lon can i still be strong i need those confidence back, nobody will know whether that they r suitable for each other in the start there r alot of couple breaking up after few years of r/s to me only time can show n prove everything. sometimes conflict just suddenly come i just hate bitter after sweet why can't be sweet after bitter why why why i just dun understand. but i had nv lie to u of my feelings towards u no sweet words can ever been use on other girl that i have use it on u, is u thats change me is u that make me feels that there's some1 infront for me to cherish after breaking up with my ex other than playing with girls feelings all those things is i had nv encounter in my life nv ever!!! i'll always rmb wat u told me in the bus the neckless that i gave u can nv break although i act blurr but i know wat r u trying to hint me. the neckless is unique such that its given by me to u only u can wear it. N its the last piece in the worldgive me a chance to carry u back to the times that we didn't quarrel give me a chance to bring back yr smile, give me a chance to say I'M SORRY and give me a chance to LOVE U EVEN MORE!!! u have to believe me in everything i said if not i'll be disappointed yr believe is my everything to stand up again with my own feet. i'll hold u tight n nv let u leave me again. "When u look into my eyes" i'll tell u that I LoVe YoU!!! nitez!!! ( tyring to sleep!!! Zzzz)(zhu)
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